Today's The Second.

And so far I've had about 400 calories estimated.

Its mid day so I'm doing okay. No food tonite! So ending the day at an estimated 400 calories.

I think I'm gonna start putting up thinspo pictures with each post. Sounds good to me.


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Happy New Years!

Happy New Years hopefully this year I can do some good!

675 calories already today.
There's something wrong with this picture.

At least its only 4:15PM. Means I got some time to work it off and avoid any other food.

Cigarettes.

No calories in a cigarette.

Why did I even bother checking?

Night Time.

So done with food for the day.

Breakfast - Starbucks Tall Peppermint Mocha Latte (250 calories)
Lunch - Rice (200 Calories), Lemonade Rockstar (20 calories)
Supper - Two Marco's Cheesesticks

Doing Good So Far.

Only had a tall peppermint mocha latte sans whipped cream. (250 calories)
Or maybe it did have whipped cream but if so it was little to none.

Oh and a Rockstar lemonade (20 calories).

So 11:41AM and up to 270 calories. I suppose that's okay as long as I skip lunch. C:

Goal for today: Anywhere below 850 calories. <3

My Boyfriend.

He doesn't know about any of this.

However I have another secret to.
My ex-boyfriend doesn't know about my current boyfriend.

I think I do it so that way in the future, I can still turn to my ex after college and say "Hey, I want to be back with you." And I know at that time he'll say yes. He's already said he would.

God, I love him. But I'm scared I'm falling for my current boyfriend.

I don't know. My life is twisted. This is why I stay somewhat anonymous.

I'm Changing This.

I've decided I shall officially change this to my journal of sorts.

I am pro-ana.
Don't think that means I want to turn every girl on to eating disorders (or males for that matter).
But I am open and honest of this eating disorder and shall stay this way.
Stats? Here they are:

Weight: 136 lbs
Height: 5'4"
Measurements aren't able to be done right now. I left my measuring tape at college.

So let me tell you of all my goals. ;)

GW1: 130 lbs
GW2: 125 lbs
GW3: 120 lbs
GW4: 110 lbs
UGW: 105

I'm Doing Good.

Yesterday was tough. But today was better.
I only ate 813 calories total today.

Breakfast:
1/2 a Cinnabon - 365

Skipped Lunch

Supper:
2 Eggs - 180
1.5 Pieces of Toast - 153
2 Strips of Bacon - 70
Green Tea - 45

I feel really proud of myself today. So I'm going to count this as a great day.

Been A While.

I've started college this past semester so its been tough to get a grip on life. I was off this blog for a while but now I'm back!
I'm having trouble struggling with my eating disorder.

Its back.

But right now its making me happy and beautiful.
Only 30 pounds until my ultimate goal weight. But you all are the only ones who know!

I'll be back again, but for now I must sleep. I'm tired.